Okay...So Today Really Was Hard

One of the things that I promised myself was that, when I started this effort was that I would commit to all my feelings, good or bad.

The good has been easy.
The hard, well, I'm struggling with it.

I struggled today. I felt bad, I was mad with my husband, I was mad at myself. I was just MAD. In retrospect it was pretty ridiculous - and pretty childish but still, at the time, I was annoyed with life. I felt like one of those kids that doesn't get their way and kicks and screams only I wasn't allowed to kick and scream but trust me when I say that I was kicking and screaming on the inside.

So I did what any good self indulgent 42 year old child would do.
I went and had my hair colored and cut.
With money that I *may* or *may not* have had.
So, the children won't have steak this weekend.

They'll live.
I however, have cut and colored hair.
And I am not mad anymore.

Hubby just came home bearing a frosty.
Ooh, a frosty.
Life is good again.
xoxo, sober mommy


Sober Mommy said...

Good for you. Sometimes you need to take time out for yourself and relax.
Oooo...and now I want a frosty too.

Sober Mommy said...

You know, I think days like this are good for all of us. We all have the tantrums - some of us don't deal with them at all, and on the other end of the spectrum, we hurt ourselves to deal. You chose something nurturing for yourself to deal, and I personally am very proud of you. Next time you'll remember this and hopefully, it won't be so hard. Hang in, mama :)

Sober Mommy said...

Know how you feel! Can't really explode when I need to so have to find another way.....a cut and color sounds pretty good. I just like having a place to bitch so need to update my blog more often.

Sober Mommy said...

Sometimes, that's the best thing TO do.

Sober Mommy said...

GOOD. we moms gotta take time out for just ourselves sometimes, you know?

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